A few things inc Xavier's appointment

So first thing is first - Xavier had his appointment today with Dr F. He was a very nice doctor which put me at ease seeing as it is always nerve wracking to go see someone new, especially when it is related to your child's health. He said he agrees with the initial diagnosis from Dr H - that the stitch has popped therefore the muscle is sitting unattached behind the eye. He said there is also a chance the stitch has not popped all together but just loosened and the muscle has shifted. So it is still attached but just loosely and in the wrong place. He said the best thing to do was more surgery but that it wasn't an urgent matter and could wait till Dr H returned from holidays. We see him July 28. So even though the appointment revealed the disappointing news that an operation is back on the cards, at least his regular specialist can do it, and at least nothing dangerous is going on. I feel much more calm now knowing the matter is ok to wait for Dr H and nothing bad will happen while we wait. And just to add Xavier was so so good at his appointment too which always makes me proud.

Second piece of news is you might remember me posting about our rescue bunny Albert having to be put to sleep due to a suspected brain tumor. Our remaining bunny Bonnie has been missing him terribly and we decided to visit the rescue again to find her a new friend. This is the same rescue we did some volunteer work at. We plan to revisit that but have taken a break from it for the time being because of both my surgery back in May and Xavier's eye surgery - which of course has turned out to be a more lengthy drama. Anyway we have found the perfect boy - his name is Jim and he is 1 year old and was abandoned a few months ago and was yet to be adopted when we chose him. We did a little date with Bonnie and the interaction was positive. Bunnies are tough to bond together though so I am sure we are in for some fun and games when little Jim joins our family this Sunday.

Lastly I have been wanting to post this for awhile and then was amazed to see Stacey's post talking about memories. Stacey had something different to say but the simalar "good and bad memories" theme to what has been on my mind lately. I caught a rerun of the show Ally McBeal recently on cable and it reminded me of being 16. I used to watch that show every Monday back then and loved it. It seems a lifetime ago though and I wish I could bottle all the lessons I have learnt in those years gone by and pass them on to someone else. So many memories of so many things come flooding back when I reflect on the last almost 12 years of life. Hindsight is such a valuable thing and I have such guilt of how little faith I had throughout the challenges that I faced. I know we are "supposed" to give our problems over to the Lord as Christians and have faith that He knows best and that whatever happens will be the right outcome. We are supposed to know that His plan is the best plan. But I didn't know that. I still forget that. All those dark days when I longed for my baby and people kept telling me "don't worry God hasn't forgotten you" I really thought that He indeed had left me to flail. Now that I have lived through all that section of my life I realise how wrong I was and I feel so ashamed. I continually apologise to God but wonder how I can possibly undo my past attitude. I just want to say this in order to try to pass on that "lesson in a bottle" to you all. For all those who do wonder if God has lost your address, for all those who are still waiting for their miracle...God remembers you. Trust me!

Love to you all xoxoxoxo